Today at work, while I was just trying to enjoy my ice cream on break, my boss and co-worker were talking about a proper woman’s place. Now, I’ve gotten used to them talking about this, but today was the straw that broke the camel’s back. And this is why:
My co-worker said that he would love to meet a woman who knew her place, where she knows when she’s being an asshole to him, and just starts slapping/beating herself up.
When my co-worker was saying this, he and my boss were dying of laughter, and I’m just standing there, and in my head I’m thinking, “WHY THE FUCK WAS THAT NECESSARY. WHY DOES A WOMAN HAVE TO BEAT HERSELF UP TO MAKE HIM HAPPY.”
I lashed out on them today because they noticed that I was quite and I straight up told them to go fuck themselves. Their excuse was that they were just goofing around and joking, but it’s not funny anymore. They said that I’m too sensitive and to just get over it, but honestly, who wants to hear that? They told me to not be “one of those girls,” meaning a woman who takes any joke as something more. No, that’s fucking offensive, and just plain rude. THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON TO SAY THAT SHIT.
And this is not a one-time thing, IT’S CONSTANT. I’m always getting picked on because of my races and because I’m a woman. I’m just so tired of this because it hurts.
I never voice my opinion about my co-workers hating on women, and that’s a form of programming (not having a voice/speaking up; I read about it for my feminism class). I have to follow their rules and do what they say, and not talk back because they hold my job and can fire me at any moment.
I’ve only recently started giving an attitude to both my bosses (yes I have two and the other one is even more annoying). Their excuse for my “bitchy” attitude is that I’m on my period. ENOUGH. STOP. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO ASSOCIATE MY ATTITUDE WITH MY PERIOD? I HAVE AN ATTITUDE BECAUSE OF A BODILY FUNCTION? I COULD BE FUCKING MAD THAT IT’S RAINING OUTSIDE OR I FORGOT MY LUNCH AT HOME, BUT NO LET’S JUST BLAME IT ON THE PERIOD.
The real problem is that they don’t listen to me and just brush me off whenever I get mad over them being mean. They always think it’s a joke and that my attitude will pass. I’m just so frustrated and this job has become so toxic for me.
I just have to hold out until the end of summer, then I can fucking leave this hellhole.